Hey, I got to chat to Sanya last night. It’s her birthday today. She’s in Radio Idol at Monster RX 93.1. That’ll be on Monday, probably around this time. I’m asking everyone to vote for her thru text.

And if you (Sans) are reading this, good luck man!! Don’t screw up this time. Just relax. Haha! I know that you can do it.

I just saw Spiderman 2 and it sucked!! Sure it got me touched, but it still sucked!! His identity was revealed. WTF? Then Harry’s dad showed up in the mirror? Bullshit. It’s pure crap. I guess the writers ran out of ideas on how to reach the ending. I think they wrote it with the ending first. Of course, since it’s a sequel, the start’s already there. It sucked!!

[bleep]

Anyway, I got to chat with May-Ann today, but only for a while though. I got to drive to school this afternoon too. Made my day brighter.

Hmmm, I think my dad is leaving for Germany tomorrow and I think he’ll go to Singapore too. My dad’s been travelling a lot lately. I can’t wait for my sister to leave eather. I just remembered that I don’t have her number, which is good. I need my book back though before she leaves. I’m going to kill her if she leaves with the book with her classmate.

I haven’t jammed this week or touch one of my axes either. I want to play!!

Yesterday was a twisted unforgettable day. I went to school late (as usual) only to find out that my lab journal is missing. So I was there with a bad hair day and bragging eventually pissing off everyone else specially Mark. That’s practically what happened in the morning.

Then around 2 or something my mom sent me a message that there’s a doctor that can see May-Ann. I had to force her to see the doctor. After about half an hour of persuasion and terror, I got to bring her there. She talked and I hope that that was everything. After that, we were asked to get her diagnosis, lab results and medical certificate. God, we barely knew where the hospital was. We reached Batangas already and still no sign of the hospital. Not to mention the half the tank of gas we used. We stayed at Paseo for a while when we got back so she could see Mark. I got home around 10 and my mom was sort of pissed off so I just explained. It was really hard to explain with my previous lies, trying to twist situations. Anyway, that was it and I got around with it. I got so tired I dropped flat on the bed. I only got sleepy after I brought the two to their houses. I never get tired when I’m with them.

I’m also used to driving with everybody else sleeping. Specially on straight empty roads. Hehe! So don’t worry about staying awake when I drive. It doesn’t matter. I like the time to think while everybody is asleep. I also enjoy it watching you sleep. Haha! Those are the stuff that money can’t buy.

How stupid can I get? I mixed up Sanya’s birthday with someone else. Tomorrow is her birthday. This one’s for you Sans!! Haha! I miss you so much, you crazy shithead! Oh yeah, I still have to bring your noodles. Hehe!

I think my dad just got back from China. He’ll be going to Germany maybe this week. I have no idea on his schedule. Last time I saw him was Tuesday last week.

Cable’s still out. I can’t find the number of the cable company. Haven’t seen Spiderman 2 either. I saw Day After Tomorrow but didn’t get to finish it, the DVD I got was shitty and it started to skip. Better get to fixing stuff here.

Oh yeah, the subwoofer’s working fine. I like the sound. I can feel the vibrations crawling through the walls. The thumps. The booms. The bumps. The shakes. The sound is just amazing. I’ll try to get better speakers soon when I get to save enough money.

Tomorrow is Sanya’s birthday and I’m thinking how I’m going to greet her. She’ll be 20 now. I just got back from May-Ann’s place. I rushed home when I found out when she was online, unfortunately, she just left when I arrived. She asked Mark to tell me to go to their place instead. We had a long talk I think. It feels short but it was about two hours. I really didn’t want to leave yet but when I saw my cue when she yawned. She probably was tired already. Time flies when you’re having fun. It’s been a long time since I had a nice talk with her.

I think I’m going to be allowed to bring a car again. This afternoon, I took the car without permission again. I reached home the same time my mom did and she didn’t say anything. Then I was asked to go to Alabang to bring some stuff for my sister. I’m a good boy, so I did. I brought the subwoofer this time. I also passed by Festival to buy another DVD (I bought one at Rustan’s). I’ll finally get to watch Spiderman 2 and Day After Tomorrow. I know, I’m the only one who hasn’t watched it. I’ll watch it tomorrow when I find the time to.

I think my sister will be going to Singapore or Germany soon. The stuff I brought to Alabang are her stuff for her visa application. That’s good because she gets to fulfill her dreams. That’s good too because nobody will get in my way anymore. This country is too small for the both of us. God I hate her, she’s such a bitch.

I have to puke. I just had two of those Moo shit. Bah!! Anyway, last night was the only night when I had straight sleep from 3 days. When I woke up, I went downstairs but there was no food. So I just played NFS:U until 1 or something. Lunch wasn’t prepared so I just went to bed again. I had no other choice when I woke up so I just took anything in the ref.

The other night, Mark called me up. He said we had to go look for May-Ann. She was hospitalized. So I ran downstairs took the keys and ran out with the car. I was in so much hurry I forgot to bring my sweater. I picked up Mark then we went straight to Tagaytay. All we knew was that the hospital was in Tagaytay but we didn’t know what hospital it was. Her cousin, Sheena, had her phone and Sheena was such a bitch because she won’t tell us where they were. God, I swore I’d slap that little slut when I see her. Back to the road trip story, we went all over Tagaytay and then to Silang. We checked all the clinics and hospitals and she wasn’t there. So I gave up. I know I said that I won’t give up. But when I did, I really just wanted to stop driving and think. Mark told me that she was okay already so that lightened the situation. We just waited for her near her house. We looked like private investigators, watching every car that passed and stopped by. I tried to get some straight sleep but cars just kept passing by when I started to. Mark didn’t catch May-Ann arrive. Before we were supposed to go home, we decided to ask if she was there. Then there she was, suddenly, all my exhaustion disappeared.

I know I’m a bad friend, I forced her to skip and drop her NSTP class. We went to Paseo for a while, we brought Jobelle, Rina and Carol along. Then we went somewhere else so we could talk some more until after lunch. I brought the three back to AUP and then asked May-Ann to stay again. I wanted to make sure I took every opportunity to be with her before everything was too late. I promised her I’d bring her home by 5. I watched a little TV then took over the computer then took a nap. The two had their special time and I have no idea what they did and the door was locked so I got more curious. It didn’t matter though, I just went back to the computer.

Then I brought her home around 6. I was asked to go home too. So we reached her place, she went down and said her goodbyes. When I turned the car back, I saw her mom at the other side of the road with a pissed off look. I’m sure she was and probably mad at me too. I went on and all I saw was May-Ann crossing the road to talk to her mom. I hope she didn’t get in to more trouble. It sucks so bad that her parents hate us. I can’t accept that.

When I got home, I made up a story and my mom didn’t get mad for running away with the car. I hope May-Ann is fine right now. I owe her a lot. Life would be different without her, she’s more than a friend. More like a sister, probably even more. She’s my life saver.

OMG, I’m so sleepy. My eyelids almost dropped shut when I was at AUP this morning. I only had a couple of hours of sleep last Thursday night and Friday night. I couldn’t sleep, I have shit running through my head. So I just played Need for Speed: Underground just to forget them. So far, I’m halfway the game already and just started Thursday night. But after I play, I remember them again. So, I play again until I eventually get tired. Actually, I almost forgot that I was the one in charge in the drawing mechanism at the raffle draw at the acquaintance party.

The party went okay. I sucked a bit. I went off a couple of times. The mobile and band equipment was good. They had nice equipment but the crew sort of sucked. The bass amp kinda sucked though. The one at the studio is even better and the monitors were set too weak, I couldn’t hear myself. The lighting was great, it sucks that very few danced though. After the party, I was supposed to go to Paseo to celebrate Randal’s birthday. Unfortunately, I had this headache so I just stayed home until it wore off and went to bed.

This morning my mom went to the parent’s organization or something at school. That sucks big time because she’ll know what’s going on. Man, I’m pissed. I hate it when she does that. They’ll see all the bad stuff that happens but they will never see my accomplishments. Yea, I have a couple which I can be proud of like being part of the SC and starting my own organization.

I just heard last night that my sister’s leaving for her OJT I think. I’m so happy. Nobody knows how much I hate her. We used to get along, but now, she’s such a bitch. My dad went to China this week and I didn’t know. I knew that he was going to Germany it turned out that it’s going to be next week. Great, my dad will be out of the country for more than half month or so. He said I can use the extra subwoofer at Alabang. Apparently, he forgot to tell my sister to bring it here. That sucks because I was waiting for it.

I’m having big problems with my budget. I couldn’t save enough money from my allowance. Most of this week’s allowance went to jamming and rehearsals. I got 700 smackers for this week and it sucks that only 40 was left. I’m saving for something and I was hoping to buy it next week already. Looks like I’ll have to wait for two more weeks. I’m still materialistic, I want more money!! Shoot me in the head now because I never think of those who are less fortunate than me.

I love this girl already. She’s my wallpaper. Hehe! She’s so damn hot!!! What does that face project? Is that a smile? I love that body too!

Speaking of girls, Angel asked for a favor last night. She was asking if I could get her an application form from school. It’s not a big deal. But come to think of it, if I went out with her and she’s my neighbor and she went to the same school with me, it could be a perfect relationship. Right? A perfect girlfriend. She’s nice, cute and probably smart. We won’t have problems going out and meeting each other. Wouldn’t that be cool? Haha! I’m starting to like her now. God, I don’t even know her that much yet. I’ll fix that. Haha, she owes me a favor so I could probably ask her out. Woohoo!

Woke up about two hours ago. Something on my mind kept bothering me that I had to wake up. Tried to sleep early, but still haven’t slept enough. I’ve been reading journals of my friends since then. I’ve been trying to get some songs from KaZaA but it seems to suck now.

Yesterday somehow ended up to be a good day. Let’s see…I got to use the car today when I got ack from school. I changed the flat tire of the car, so my mom couldn’t complain why I was using it. I used it to go to Rustan’s to check if they have any new clear DVDs. Which reminds me, I still haven’t seen Spiderman 2. Haha, Gian (from school) was telling me how hotdog I was. Who cares man, I don’t have to watch it if everyone does. It’s just a movie. Going back, it turned out they had nothing new or they ran out of stock. I saw David when I was going back, so I asked him if they have any new ones. So I went to dorm, played PS for a while then checked out some DVDs. I borrowed “Blue Crush” and “My Boss’s Daughter”. Blue Crush was about surfing, was okay. And the other one’s a romantic comedy, just mediocre. Then stayed home until 4. We practiced around 4 just at the studio. I was planning to walk but I took advantage of the car. Haha! When I got back, my mom was already home she asked me what happened to the tire. The tire was okay, I think somebody at AUP intentionally removed air from it. Then about half an hour later, I was informed that my favorite sister (not biological) is at Paseo, having dinner. So I went there (with the car again). I texted Mark that she was there. When he arrived, I left. I was tired already. When I got home it was almost 9, didn’t have an appetite to eat so I went straight upstairs and watched another DVD then went to bed.

Another thing that made my day was when Angel sent me a message. Unfortunately, she just asked for a favor. Usually, I’m the one who drops a message first. Well, people are friendlier when they need your help. But it’s a process. The favor wasn’t big anyway.

Right now, I’m listening to Razorback’s first album (Hebigat Sounds Volume One). They used to kick ass. It sucks that the new album’s so different. I like “Beggar’s Moon” better though. I got to borrow it from Jet. I also got to borrow July’s G3 (2003). I like the last song at the second disc (Rockin’ In The Free World). I found out that Malmsteen plays performance classical pieces.

I hope I’m in condition for rehearsals today. I was so off yesterday. I’ll try to excuse myself at STATPRO or skip it. Today will be the last day for our rehearsals. Then tomorrow, the acquaintance party!! I can’t wait. Oh yeah, I still have to prepare for it. I almost forgot.

Hello my faithful readers, I just got up. I was trying to gain some sleep. I was at JC’s house last night. I jammed all night long with Roy, JC and Randal. It was perfect synchronization. We were playing jazz and reggae. JC kicks ass on the guitar now. Yesterday was Randal’s birthday too. I’m so tired and sleepy. Roy and I slept at my house at Alabang. We walked going there from ATC. Then, just when we were about two blocks away from the house, it started to drizzle. It scared me that it got stronger then luckily, it suddenly stopped. Then when we got there, we went to bed straight eventhough we wanted to clean ourselves up, take a bath and brush our teeth. Yeah, just like a real rock star!! Hahaha! Hobos!!

I’m starting to become lazy. I skipped BIOCHEM last Friday and yesterday. I think it’s one of the subjects I might fail this term. I’ve been getting rumors that I got a 4.0 in my STATPRO class. Whoopsy doo, I cheated too much. Hehe! And I was starting to think that college was so easy then I just remembered that I haven’t taken all the math classes after failing Trigonometry. I have a lot of catching up to do.

Going back to Sta. Rosa, my dad gave me money. I think I should move to Alabang for 2 weeks or something. I need to meet new people in my small world here in the south. Besides that, I get more money. Haha!

May-Ann has no phone since yesterday. I feel really bad. Specially on how her parents think of us. I admit I also was a bad influence but not that far. I’m not a drug addict/pusher!! I’ll be buying her a 5110 after I save enough dough. Just when things are already the worst, it situation became more difficult. I also feel sorry for not trusting her (I know you’re reading this May-Ann). It just happened lately, I don’t know why. Something’s wrong with me. I deserve to be torched to death for being such a bad friend.

I was looking for a nail cutter and I saw a wrist band on my sister’s desk, where I found a nail cutter. God, she’s such a poser. I think most of the people in AUP are posers. It’s the wrist band with spikes on it. The one punks wear. She doesn’t even listen to punk. I don’t mean that she has to listen to punk to wear one. But why does she like to wear one of those? I’m tellin’ you, because everyone does!! Squatter!! Putang ina mo!! Magpakatotoo ka!! These are the type of people who I hate so much. People trying to be someone who they are not. Fuckin’ posers!! Mindless people who can’t decide on their own, just people who do what most people do. People who want to live in a boring, homogenous, unvarying, dull and tiresome society and life. That’s what they are. Mother fuckin’ posers!!

I love that status message from Yahoo! Messenger. Emo shit. After my earlier post, I had a chat with May-Ann. It’s so sad that her parents hate us. I’m really depressed. She said she’s not allowed to hangout with us anymore. I just wish I could do something.

I’m confused. I’m pissed off and in deep sorrow. Last Saturday I wasn’t allowed to go to AUP. I was forced to go to Manila and hear more problems. Kuya Erwin was there. A good friend of mine (he’s in his early 30’s I think and married with 2 sons). He’s part of the school board and is now very active. He’s been telling me all sorts of problems and boy was it punishment. I couldn’t tell them that I didn’t want to hear ‘em. Apparently, Kuku’s (another friend) dad was causing trouble and was sending letters. We were having lunch, I brought up a topic on Kuya Erwin on computers so we wouldn’t have to talk about the school. Then, suddenly my dad came and started talking about Kuku’s dad. A few minutes later, my mom came. God, that was annoying. I finished up my food and left immediately. I don’t want to talk about it anymore. But Kuya Erwin told me that they’ll close the school if they have to. My dad just terminated a couple of teachers that sucked. I just found out that the school offers the lowest tuition fee in the district while keeping up with standards. Like I said, everything has a price. It’s hard to find teachers that don’t suck nowadays. I feel sorry for the kids enrolled. Transferring to another school will be a nightmare. I know I regret transferring to AUP. These kids will suffer because of irresponsible greedy people. Fuck them all!

I’m still wishing that I could bring a car to school again. That’s why I’m pissed off. I could be going somewhere on weekends like I used to. I miss those days. I could be meeting new girls [and friends]. AAAAHHH!! I have to drive again. Why did my dad buy four cars if we only use two? No wonder the other cars break down easily, nobody uses them. What a waste. If he allowed me to drive, those cars would be up and running. Everything was pure accident except for the one with the Lancer. That was pure stupidity. Anyway, I now know that I shouldn’t do stunts anymore. Haha! I’ll be the safe driver (I hope).

Oh yeah, last Thursday, I got to talk to Irene again. It’s been a long time since I heard from her. It seems that she wasn’t recieving my text messages. She had hyperacidity when I called. Poor Irene. Hehe! Trisha said calls weren’t charged at that time. She borrowed my phone to make a couple of calls. She said she’ll pay me if my balance went down. So, for the first 30 minutes of calling, my balance didn’t change until it slowly went down then faster after a while it started to. Then she paid me a hundred smackers. Haha, refund for my load.

We have problems with the band. We’re lacking members and we need more songs to complete. The acquaintance will be on Friday already. I hope we won’t screw up.Randal started his own blog too. Check it out. Sanya’s birthday is coming up. I wonder if she’ll have another birthday bash.