Oh God!!! I’d like to thank JC for saving my ass. Thanks for the answers for the homework! I owe you man! I just noticed something new with Yahoo! Mail, they increased my mailbox size to 100 MB. Those who use it, please check yours, because it might be a bug on their servers. I’ve noticed this 3 days ago. Well, if they did increase mailbox storage, it means they’re competing with Google’s so-called G-Mail. If you haven’t seen the accounts being sold at e-bay then your lost man! Google’s offering test mail accounts with special invites. The accounts have 1 GB of space!!!

Today’s membership drive went well. I believe it will be until Wednesday. I have now 11 applicants. It’s weird that the other orgs have a membership fee. I have another thought buzzing in my brain and it’s been bothering me since Saturday night. What are secrets? Is it a burden or a blessing? I find it a burden. I find it very hard to keep ‘em. But I stick to my word. OR at least try my best to stick to it. And I know which ones are to keep. So, those who know me, don’t tell me your secrets unless I share mine to you because you’ll just burden me with dark and deep thoughts. It doesn’t matter how much I force you into telling you to, just don’t. There are some exceptions that have to be made, you know what I should know and should not. Now, I’m asking my closest friends to stay open. Haha! It’s a fucked up thought, I know.

I’d like to share my latest work:

I’d like to call this “No Sleep”. That’s Mark’s hand, I edited it to make it look like a painting. Like some sort of still life. I really like this one so drop a line in the comments.

I don’t know what to call it. Not “Double Decker” because it sounds so gay. But I really like the shot. Didn’t do any editing here, just rotate and resize. It’s a perfect shot and I like the focused weight on red with accents of yellow. Leave a comment too.

If you haven’t noticed, I’m into dark pictures with a lot of red and yellow. I don’t like yellow so much but it looks good with red. I know what you’re thinking of May-Ann, just leave a comment. Hahaha!

Oh yeah, I forgot to tell everyone in the world that I just started an organization in school. It’s called the Digital Arts Club. Fuck, it sounds so ordinary. But who cares, in ten years I’ll be famous for founding it. Hahaha!! I finally got to talk to May-Ann, after a talk with Mark, I had to talk to her. I think that I was just being immature. And I have to admit, I’m a major control freak that wants to take over the lives of other people. And I use people too. Doesn’t that just sound so bad? But it’s all good now, we’re cool. Back to normal, but there are some things that will remain unclear forever, not knowing the reasons but I can just forget about it and move on and start over again. I guess there are always second chances, right? Today, there will be a membership drive at school for the organizations. I stayed up late thinking and making demonstrations. Some thoughts in my mind kept slowing me down. I was also texting Mark, and boy was it a laugh trip. That fucker is so funny. Hahaha! He said he’ll start his own blog too. Wait for it. I always wonder what comes in to his mind, since he has tons of brain fart. Hell yea, a brain fart machine!!

Talking to May-Ann now. Read this because I’m not in a good mood: I MISSED FETE!!! Of all the things I planned. I didn’t have a ride. Or “we”, I was with Mark and Ramel. So, we just chilled at ATC and wished how much fun we could be having at Libis.

What is hope? Someone please tell me what it means. I live in a complex world where a word could have a billion meanings. I really like walking because it gives me time to think about small thoughts that bubble out of my mind.

Isn’t it amazing that it can take you a long time to build something then destroy it in a second or less? Just look around you, observe your daily life. Just recieving a text message and deleting it. Writing a report and shredding it in just a few seconds. Building the world trade center at NY that took years to build and just hours to bring down. And even trust in a relationship that took almost forever to build and yet gone in just one small sentence. It just goes like , it’s gone instantly. But is it possible to rebuild that? Maybe, or maybe not. Would it be the same? Probably hardly. Would you believe in “forgive and forget”? Because I don’t, I forgive but never forget. People say they do, but I don’t see it in them. Just wait for a small issue and it comes out again. They say everything you’ve done before. I saw this line from Shrek 2; “True friends are meant for abuse”. Is this acceptable? I think not, if you’re a true friend at the first place, you won’t abuse. Second, there are boundaries in life. I have another movie quote; “What is one man’s life worth?”. Answer this because I’m stomped. I got it from “Ticker” from a short film. Oh yeah, I completed the series “The Hire”. 8 short films made by BMW Films with 2 seasons. Directed by the world’s best directors and casted by the world’s best actors and stunt men. Check them out.

Wow, the school canteen looks better now. For once, La Casita did something right. It looks like Starbucks from outside. The tables, chairs and the green umbrellas. Plus the Wi-Fi!! Hahaha! I brought to school my dad’s laptop. It’s great! About five hours of usage on batteries. Really wireless, eh? I’m goin to ask my dad to trade laptops with mine. If I do get the guts to, I’m pretty sure he doesn’t want to. Check out this picture:

Scary isn’t it? This is one of my favorite shirts! It was so funny yesterday when I was dressing up, I said to myself, “Black!! Wear black!!”. And so I did, then I had this urge to play something hard rock!! Hahaha! Release the evil!!! MWAHAHAHAHA!

Last night, I felt so mad, so depressed, so worried, so sorry, so happy and so wrong. I hate my life. Why the hell did I get this mixed feelings? Why me? Wake up call! It’s okay dude. Stand up and move on. Oh yeah, I have this class at school called THEOCOM. Introduction to Automata Theory, Languages and Computation. Take this class and you’ll get smarter. It exercises your logical skills. The other night, I was doing my homework on this class and I didn’t get to do it. Yesterday, I saw how it was done, and fuck you ignorant, it was hella easy!!! Fuck, I’m getting stomped here. I need to work harder on that subject! But I have a big feeling that I won’t fail that class. The only subject I’m prone to fail is BIOCHEM, why? Because I’m a big slacker. I already missed one homework and finished a half yesterday. And today, we have lab for BIOCHEM and I forgot to write down the shit in the lab journal thingy. Now, I’ll finish late again. Then, I have to spend extra stuff for photocopying the stuff to write. Aaahh!! This is torture. I still have to get a copy of the lecture notes in our economics class. The thing is, I don’t want to spend. And another thing is, photocopying service in school is so expensive. They need a competition! Same goes with the canteen! Stupid cafeteria bitches! BTW, I already have a copy of the schedule for Fete de la Musique. Those who want one, email me.

I’m starting to think that friendship is bullshit. You know all the stuff you say to your friends and I don’t think I won’t believe in that shit anymore. Life is unfair, isn’t it? Whoopdeedoo, more emo crap. Fuck that, I just saw Euro Trip. It was hella funny. Haha!

Here are the DVDs I last saw:
-Euro Trip
-The Girl Next Door
-40 Days and 40 Nights
-Matrix Revolutions
-xXx
-Paycheck
-Bring It On Again

Oh, that’s thit? I guess it wasn’t that much. Making lists do make a difference.

Here’s a review of the X1000. The name sounds too high tech for me. And here’s a pic:

I LOVE IT!!!

I screwed up again. I was fooled. This time, I’ve learned from this mistake. It’ll never happen again. It’s pissing me off and I don’t want to share it because it’s too personal.

Let’s have a change in mood. My dad bought this new laptop and I love it so much I wish he’d give it to me. It’s the Compaq Presario X1000. Here are the specs:
-It’s a Centrino
-P4M 1.3GHz
-256MB RAM
-30GB HD
-16:9 Wide Screen LCD Display (This is what I love the most)
-ATI Mobility Radeon 7500 Video Card with SVideo output(I love the extendable desktop/multiple monitors)
-JBL Pro Laptop Speakers (I love this one too, it’s the best with laptop audio)
-SD Card Reader/Writer
-CD-ROM Drive (I though it was a DVD/CD-RW Combo Drive)
-Wireless and Wired LAN (I’ll bring it to school to test the Wi-Fi tomorrow)
-Bluetooth enabled!!!
-3 USB ports (I think one of em is USB 2.0)

This is like a dream laptop. It’s a must have!!! And I’m using it now. Uh oh, Ariel just texted (is that right?) me. He said he had a problem with my G-string!! Hahaha, you read that right, my G-string. Only I can use it right! Nah, just messin around. I meant the G-string of my bass. I guess it’s ok as long as he replaces it and he didn’t damage the guitar. He said he was sorry. Anyway, I know who’s going with me to Fete, Mark, Sanya and of course Joe. Mark and I will probably go together and Meet Sans and Joe there. We still don’t have a ride though.

Man, I returned the DVD I borrowed from the girl next door. Haha! Now you get it don’t you? She’s not really next door but the window of her room faces mine. She’s so sweet. I’m so thrilled. I swear she was watching me. I borrowed another DVD and then it turned out the case was empty and then she saw me coming back. She would go out of the house right before I even reached their yard. God, I heard her dad’s dead strict and has a high rank in the police. But who cares, nothing can stop love. I’m not in-love yet, I just like her. It sucks that she’s still in high school though. Who knows, it might turn out okay.