I was supposed to post last night but I was so sleepy, tired and not in a good mood so I just fell asleep. My sister woke me up because Encarta wasn’t working on the PC. I have to format it soon. Some phlegm from my cough is starting to come out. I think I’ll be okay in three days. Jammed yesterday, wasn’t in the mood so it sucked. I had a test in BIOCHEM yesterday, my brain was blank but I got to copy answers from Joey. Hehehe! Thanks dude!

My watch says it’s Monday, June 28, 6:30 PM. I guess I haven’t been moving alot that it stopped already. Hehehe

I’m confused. I was in the shower and I was thinking. What if something wrong happened, who do I turn to? Somebody raise their hand so I can see. Hehe! Where do these thoughts come from anyway? That confuses me more. Maybe it’s because of my small world where the close people in my life revolve in. Hmmm, that really wasn’t so clear, wasn’t it? Words are just words. Visual or audible symbols of a certain idea. I’m so into psyschology today. I even checked out this topic: “Impossible Figures in Perceptual Psychology”.

Forgive me May-Ann (and Mark too) for the mood swings, I told you I was a control freak. It really is because the lack of sleep. I don’t know if it made me slow too. I’m really not feeling so good. I’m not sleepy and hungry though. So, you guys just love each other. Got that? Read it again so you don’t forget. I only had one meal today and two or maybe three hours of sleep. I gotta see a doctor. But first, I have to make sure somebody sees one before I do. Somebody needs it more than I do.

I was talking to Sans earlier today. I think she was right. Teenagers (including me) think that life sucks. I sometimes think of it too. But I have my own beliefs. Listen to me people, listen. I don’t have a religion. I don’t know if I believe in “God” (I’m not mad at him). I think gods are just a psychological illusion from the brain. And of course, buried deep in the minds of individuals. Creation? I just believe that humans are here. No evolution, just mutations by accident or something. But not slowly changing. I believe that life is just life. Question is, “What is one’s life worth?”. I don’t know. I’m trying to figure it out. I believe that when people die, they’re just dead. No ghosts. No souls. But as long as I’m alive, I believe that life is good and I shouldn’t lose it or end the life of someone else. Uhhh, forget listening to me. This is just my personal opinion. That was supposed to be kept in myself. Just forget that I said that. Okay?

This cough is killing me. The problem with dry cough is that there’s no phlegm that comes out when you cough and your lungs pump out air as hard as it can. I tried spitting out phlegm earlier, actually forcing it until something moved up and my throat sort of jammed and I was choking. I just swallowed it back. Haha! Now, this cough is really killing me!!

Eric just dropped by he texted earlier he said his PC is broken again. He tried installing a couple of sticks of memory then there were errors so he removed them again. So now, there are no sounds or beeps and no display when you turn it on. The thing is, you can diagnose hardware errors by the beeps. I have a gut feeling that the motherboard is broken. This is bad.

Check out Mark’s blog. Let’s see what happens in his brain. I wonder how he produces those brain farts. Hahaha!

I guess it isn’t just cough. There’s more but I can bare it. I’m rotting.

I’m sick! I have this very dry cough and it’s killing me! I think it’s my lack of sleep. Haven’t been sleeping right for the past few days. Like yesterday, I only had 2 hours of sleep and went through my day without gaining that lost sleep. Damn, I feel like dying already. This week will be full of exams and I hope this doesn’t get worse.

I finally fixed Eric’s computer. I had to do him the favor, he’s done lots of things for me anyway. I really don’t like fixing very old hardware but that’s okay at least my brain got refreshed for fixing PCs again. I was dealing with very unreliable hardware. At least that’s done now.

Wow, no hangover. Haha! I was just thinking yesterday and I was asking myself who is the person I can trust the most. AAAHH!! OMG, this is a sick world. Trust no one! Well, the only person who hasn’t let me down is probably Eric. Damn, I just remembered Michael my best friend from grade school. I miss him. I wish we could hang out sometime. I have another thing, I wonder when I will find the right girl for me. I just can’t find the right one.

Whoops, I guess it was last Tuesday since I last wrote anything here. I was just so lazy and tired. I’m not getting any sleep. I was thinking what happened in the past few days that I didn’t write and it turned out that nothing much happened. There is one thing, I’m now in the Executive Committee (ExeCom). I don’t know what’s wrong with Sir Ronnie but everything has a committee for something. It’s okay to do that, but what he’s doing now is overkill. Anyway, I got into that committee because I’m a president of an RSO (Recognized School Organization). We have this meetings that we argue with him. This meetings last for 3 hours arguing about one thing. Then when he explains, he says the same thing over and over again and we he doesn’t listen to us. So what’s supposed to happen? Enough of that. Too much politics. Last Thursday, I had this test at INTRECO and I have a feeling that I flunked it. Why? No sleep and I didn’t study. I didn’t have the handouts. It’s that stupid photocopy center, it’s so expensive!! Damn, I really hate those businessmen at school, I hope they’ll drown and choke with their money. Then on that day, I went to Paseo during lunch to hangout with my classmates since it has been a long time when I last did. That afternoon, I went jamming with Randal. Just the two of us, but we managed to complete some songs, unlike before, we had nothing. Then there comes yesterday, I skipped PE just to jam again. But this time, it was somehow worth it. Roy was there to play the drums, I just found out that Roy is a good drummer and I could get along with him since he plays a large variety of songs. Right before we left, we tried to do a drum and bass thing. I try to do this with all the drummers I play with. Just to see if they can play something else. Damn, Roy fits in pretty good. And I was slapping on the crappy bass guitar at the studio, the tone was so bad I couldn’t play well. Yea, it sucks to hear me say that, so I take it back. It sounds like I blamed the guitar. But I got it fixed right before we finished jamming so I was back on track after that. Now, all we need is a singer. How come that is always the problem? Oh yeah, I forgot the acquaintance party at school was moved to July 23 instead of yesterday. This time it will rock. They finally got a view of reality and saw what a REAL party should look like. They removed the Bingo game and the stupid quiz bee. Who would you expect to go to something like that and pay 200 bucks to go in? Haha, surely not me but since I’m part of the SC it’s a shame not to. The new plan is now okay. Band showdown in the afternoon and party when the sun sets. Finally, renting of amps came in to their thoughts. This was always a problem last year. All the sound checks and competing with bigger amps are gone. Now THAT is what you call a party!! Woohoo! Can’t wait for that. I hope we can just jam after the band showdown because I know that it won’t last that long. I hope Ariel can get strings for my bass, I’m dying to use it again.

Howdy Doodly Woo? Fuck you Ned Flanders!!! HAHAHAHA!! If I had a hitman, the first person on the list is Jigs (of the school library). He fucking pisses me off. He’s been like that since Monday. That assfucker better fix his attitude or he’ll be messing with me. Now I don’t have a projector to use tomorrow, can’t use ours because my dad will use it tomorrow. But I can use it on Thursday or Friday. The thing is the membership drive is only until tomorrow. AARGH!! That baldass mother fucker is really pissing me off. Anyhoo, didn’t have anything to show at the membership drive today, just a blank list where applicants just put in their name and email address. There’s this guy from the lower batch that’s scaring me, he’s thinking of joining but he said he’s already a member of YES. Who cares man, is he that serious for school? He even talked to me at ym, didn’t know who he was, I thought he was Rafols. Hahaha! EEWWHYYUUU…he freaks me out. DAAAHH! Tomorrow is BioChem Lab again, and I don’t have a copy of the lab manual, AGAIN!! I’m pretty sure nobody has one too. Uhm, that’s bad. Oh yeah, my dad will be leaving the country again. Hmmm, he’s been going out of the country more often these days. I hope I get to go with him to the States on August. He’s leaving for China and he just got back from Thailand last Saturday. But it’s all good, I’m barely affected. We really need to have a broadband connection, me using a dial-up connection isn’t good ant it’s pissing everyone (including me) off. I read Consuelo’s LJ, and she posted something about “Clinical Depression”. I think I have it too. I don’t know why, but I think I really have it. Woohoo! It’s me the messed up person that doesn’t read the papers, hates the news and barely watches TV. Uhh, is that okay?